Hooray for antibiotics!!! I feel better today than I have in about three weeks. At least since I came down with this stupid cold. Well I guess I should update you since Wednesday. All of my student friends have left town for break. Kate left Thursday morning. I miss her a lot =(. We had a great night on Wednesday. Lots of loving and we traded massages which was wonderful. I think I'm falling in love with her, but more on that later. Thursday I got to sleep in which was really really nice. It was a really relaxed sleep(massages will do that to you), the kind I haven't had in a long time. But Thursday night at work I started to have a sore throat. It got worse on Friday when I got to work I couldn't swallow without a lot of pain. I had cough drops but they didn't seem to help much because it was the swollen glands type of sore. I got the oil changed on my car Friday and a lot of shopping done while I was waiting. I still need to get John something and David something. Dad's present has gone missing. I cleaned my room las night and couldn't find it. I guess I'll have to do their shopping tomorrow before I go to Betsy's. Anyway on Saturday I was just miserable I couldn't eat without it hurting a ton. So Dad sent me to visit Mo and have him look at my throat. I haven't seen them in a while so it was nice to get back in touch with them. They haven't changed is the funny part. They had just gotten was a new pool table, Michael and Alex were arguing over it and Mo was sitting there reading the rule book and telling them when they messed up. Mo is a great guy but sometimes he acts just like his kids. Anyway he took one look at my throat and sayd "you have toncilitis" and wrote me a prescritption. After two doses I was feeling much better. And today I feel wonderful, lots less lethargic. Much more energy =). On Sunday I stayed home from church and slept a lot and watched a lot of football which I haven't done in a long while. I wish I could spend some more time with Dad watching football or something. I haven't felt like I wanted to spend time with him in a long while so I hope I get the chance. Kate called me on Saturday night to tell me that I need to pick her up for the New Years week. It was sooo nice to talk to her, I can't believe how much I miss her. Like I said before I think I'm falling for her. It's tempting to ask her to be my steady or to be exclusive. But I don't want to do that right now, the timing is too close to the Amber thing. I've grown really close to Kate ever since they got back from Thanksgiving. Kate treated me like she missed me and Amber treated me like I was trying to get into her pants. And then Amber decided to date Justin and that she and I hadn't had a relationship with any sort of permanence. So I gravitated towards Kate a lot. I want to make sure that I'm not getting closer to Kate just because I was getting farther away from Amber. I don't think it is and I know the feelings are real. However I want to let the relationship develop even more without Amber around. Which will be a lot of fun in it's own right. I really really enjoy spending time with her. And I can't wait to see her at New Years. As far as Amber goes, the last couple of days before she left she was in a great mood but I wasn't. I was lethargic and feeling sick. So I'm not sure what she thinks. She said she still wants to be friends and it'll be easier when she gets back I guess. The one thing that I can't get over is that if I were gay it would have been a lot easier to be friends with her and she even would have extended physical intimacy to me more comfortably than she ever did this semester. Oh well. I have to resist the urge to be mean to her or to try and cause her some of the pain she caused me. It's really tempting and I need to get over being bitter. Even though I think I have the right too and need to feel at least somewhat put out so that I don't feel like I wasted all that love and energy on our relationship. Not worth worrying about anymore. I don't want to let her affect me aversely anymore, but at the same time I don't want to get a "fuck off" attitude toward her either. For New Years I'm going up to Troy's for almost a week!! I am picking up Kate in Richmond and then heading up to Troy's. We'll stay there probably until Friday so we can miss traffic coming back down. We're going to have a great time. Susan will be coming up too which will be interesting, considering the last time I saw her we had a sort of foursome with her . And I talked to her on the IM and she asked if I was ok with what happend and was up for more. I said sure but I didn't know if Kate or Amber was. But that was kinda a lie, Kate found out that she's not bisexual and I know Amber is bi-curious. Or she's greedy one or the other. The parents were going to go skiing that weekend and weren't happy I was going away for the week. But the skiing fell through and they are ok with it now. I think, I don't really know. I haven't talked to Dad about it but that's nothing new, I usually get stuff filtered through Mom from Dad. They just have to realize that I'm 22 soon to be 23 and my life doesn't and won't revolve around them anymore. It'll come, but I am kinda bummed that I won't get to spend more time with John. I planned to go up there before I knew he was coming in. I'll still get to spend a lot of time with him. And plan to spend every free minute I have doing stuff with him. Well that's it for now. I'll write more later.