I'm finally sitting down to type an update. I've been avoiding it all week because I didn't really want to write or think about the wedding. So I just decided to do that at a later time....when it's not so painful. I will however talk about why it is painful and why this week has been kinda rough. Nothing really bad happend at the wedding, like I said I'll write some other time dealing with the whole experience. But it threw in to sharp relief the situation that I am in with my family and my life. And it hasn't been fun. As much as I don't like Robert, disagree with his family about things, don't like how much they influenced Betsy; things aren't really that bad. Betsy has a marriage to a nice guy who will always love her and treat her extremly well, they will never be in danger of going hungry(Betsy can always get a job as a nurse somewhere), and if they have an argument they are both rational enough to deal with it. The bad part is that Betsy went through all that pain and fighting with Mom and Dad, and got technically what they wanted her to have anyway. It sets a really bad precident for our family. It's not that bad for me since I don't picture myself ever getting married. But what about John, or Ryan? What if John falls in love down in Florida? What's he supposed to do? All the 'rents have ever said is 'no' or 'girls are bad'. Along with getting family overload, I was also thinking a lot about where I am in life. Stuck in my parents house at 23 years old, with a dead end job and no prospect to improve. All of those things were weighing on me all weekend, keeping me from sleeping very well. So I've been fighting off the depression that comes with all of that. And in addition to that any sort of childishness really grates on me(this comes from being at home so much and dealing with it there). Nancy has been the worst at this, she whines like a little kid all day here at work, but I can't say anything. I'm trying very hard not to let it all get me down, but it was sort of a buzzkill of Kate coming back and I haven't been in the best mood the whole time. I don't think she has noticed very much, but I could be wrong. It's her birthday this weekend so I'm going to do my best to be in a good mood. I hate being depressed, especially when there's a chance it will effect other people. It's hard to watch her get that sparkle in her eyes and know that it's not in mine. So I'm just going to do my best to get through it.
In general this week has been pretty fun. Kate and I have watched a couple of good classic movies. Charade, To Catch A Thief, and Sabrina are all really good movies. Two of those are romantic comedies. And I think that it's because of those movies that I can't watch romantic comedies nowdays. They all just seem so unoriginal and trite. I watched Sweet Home Alabama and it just seemed like one generic plot device after another slammed together to make a movie. And guess what....it made over a hundred million dollars. Oh well, maybe I should write a movie script full of generic plot shtick and make money on it. We are planning to watch more, next is Maltese Falcon and Casablanca. We played some wallyball on Monday, and well I wore jeans that day. Not a good plan really. Let's see, I bruised my hand, elbow and foot, scraped some skin off my knee and bashed my other knee pretty bad on the wall. If we start playing wallyball as much as we did last semester I may invest in a pair of knee pads. One thing I did notice was the smell when I first got there. Derek usually smells bad, but it seemed like everyone there needed a shower. It was nasty, I hope that someone gives them so free soap so they remember to bathe. I'd hate to have to put up signs.
Today is Kate's birthday, they were supposed to do dinner and a movie tonight. But because she wanted to see Manchurian Canidate, which wasn't playing until late, she decided to switch it to tomorrow. Which is probably more convenient for her. But it just makes my life crazier. There's an SCA demo that afternoon, we were supposed to be going swing dancing from 7:30-9, and Mom wanted me to come to a banquet at church that night. So everything going crazy. I got her a gift that I will give to her today. It's more of a practical thing than a gift you would get from a significant other. But I know she will like it. I might get her something "sweet" tomorrow and give it to her at dinner.
I found a really really great deal on an apartment but I can't find a roommate. Ludwig could do it with me but he has complications from his parents asking him for money. I could ask Josh or Michael I guess, but then I would still have to keep my lives separate(church != SCA). Oh well I guess that's what comes from having to many female friends. Not that I mind female friends but parents would flip out if I tried to have a female roommate.