Crap!! That's what I feel like. Crap! I stayed up way to late last night and I'm just not in a good mood this morning. I went over to Julie's and Jen's house to drop off a disk. And ended up staying for waaaaay to long and got in bed really late. So I was exhausted this morning when Kate called me. I should be better when I get some cafiene in me to wake me up. But I was getting pissed at my phone for not letting her talk to me when she called yesterday. And when she told me that I started to miss her really bad, and then she said that she had talked to Vlad til midnight, and I started feeling jealous of him that he got ot talk to her and I didn't. And then she said that she had been over to David's house, which made me miss her even more. Gahh! I need to calm down and get myself under control. Dealing with emotions in the morning, especially when I'm exhausted is not fun at all. I'll probably email her a little later and hope she can check her email before she gets off of work. I'll post again before I leave.

Unfairenheit 9/11 - The lies of Michael Moore. By Christopher Hitchens

A must read for anyone who cares about their country.
Unfairenheit 9/11 - The lies of Michael Moore. By Christopher Hitchens

I had dinner with Mom last night. Somehow whenever I go out to dinner with her I always feel depressed and lethargic. We went to Quiznos and I had the turkey bacon guacamole sandwich. You wouldn't think that it would taste good but it really did. We talked about somethings, and I broke the news to her that I couldn't go to the family reunion next month. I'll be at home for four days by myself. I won't know what to do with all of the quiet. I might just take that weekend and go up to Troy's. Kate and I have been wanting to do that but haven't found a good weekend yet.
Jeff from downstairs told me to apply for the multimedia position down there. I really don't fit the qualifications but he said they would teach me what I need to know if I can do the multimedia stuff. So I'm going to start cramming that kind of stuff. It's been a while since I've done a lot of multimedia stuff. I've been concentrating on networking type things since I've gotten this job. But I may have a shot downstairs, here's hoping.

Weekend Update

Well it's that time again. I didn't update all weekend and so many things happend that I don't know where to start. The beginning that's a good place :) I'll try starting there.
On Friday I wanted to get my oil changed so I got up early to try and get it done before work. But when I got there they were backed up for an hour and a half. So I just went on to work, I was kinda bummed because I could have slept for another hour or so. Work was boring, I hate to say it but it's been really nice not having Nancy around. That sounds awful I'm sure, but I get more work done and it's less stressful without her around chattering or freaking out about every little thing. Anyway, I got everything done early and left around two. Then I had to take a movie back, get gas and lunch etc. So I didn't get on the interstate until about 3. Well I was kinda in a hurry because I wanted to see Kate really bad. So......I went about 80 most of the way :). And I got there in three hours instead of the usual 3.5. I met her in the bookstore, and we went to her Dad's birthday celebration at the comedy club there in Short Pump. We were going because it was Mitch Hedburg, one of my favorite comedians. Well the warmup act was good, but Mitch totally bombed, he got there right before he was supposed to start and just never got on a roll. He spent a lot of time making jokes about the club and the setup. And at the end he hadn't told a lot of jokes and he looked up at the clock and realized that he had to get off. It was really sad, I was looking forward to hearing his act again. Kate's Dad wasn't disapointed though, his leg was hurting so he went outside and didn't watch the show. So I guess it's ok then that he wasn't there, he didn't miss much.
Kate and I then went to Ox's, it was kinda late by that point but he was still awake. We talked for a while and then went to bed. The next morning I woke up really early and then kept dozing off and waking up again. For some reason I really just wanted to stay in bed or lay around the house all day. But we didn't, we got up and headed off to the event. Kate had some new garb from Djinn which she looked really really cute in. Especially we she had that hat on. She'd probably kick me for saying that though hehe. AI forgot my belt so I had to use some rope to keep my shirt from flying everywhere. I had a new undershirt I was trying out, it's made of a spandex type of material that is supposed to get the sweat off of your body faster and keep you cool. And it worked really well, the heat index was around 100F and I was comfortable. The tournament was very cool, it was done in bear pit style. I wish more tourney's were like this. Anyway, I actually won. I never thought I would actually win one, but it was small enough that I did. I beat 2 yellow scarves, Kelric and Michael. Which isn't half bad. Kate was proud of me which made me happy. That night we went back to Ox's and Jinn came over to talk about garb and things with Kate and I. She was really tired, and she is one of those people who can't stop talking when they are tired...... Anyhoo she finally went home to get some rest which she desparatly needed. Kate fell asleep at this point and took a nice nap. Joe was on his way over and when he got there he ordered pizza. He then began to tell us about this girl he's had a crush on for over 6 months. She is one of his students and isn't yet 18. She will be in a few months though and they are counting the days. Joe has it really bad for this kid, they have super long convos on IM, they call and text message each other constantly and he went to her ballet performance too. It's really really messed up what they are doing. He keeps saying things like "it's not as bad as what some pople do" which also scares me. I'm afraid he's going to end up loosing his job or something, or getting a lawsuit from her parents. That's another bad situation, her parents are divorced and the mom doesn't sound so great. But so far they have not done anything wrong or illegal and I don't think they will but it's still scary to think about. That night we went to bed just exhausted, at least I was....Kate seemed to have lots of energy. But I slept harder than I have in a long long time. I guess having a good teddy bear helps a lot. Sunday we slept in and when I say in I mean like 1pm. We got up and went to lunch at Outback which was very very tasty. And once again Ox managed to pay more of the bill than was his share. I wish I could do that for all of my friends. Joe had a gift certificate so he ordered cheese fries, right before they came out he got a text message from his un-girlfriend. He went outside to reply to it and we lit into the cheese fries and finisehd them before he got back. He was a good sport about it though and he acknowledged that he deserved it. And then he ordered more cheese fries. After that we went and saw chronicles of riddick. Which I thought was awesome. Vin Diesel is a complete badass. After the movie we kinda lounged around a little and then we put on the Bourne Identity which Kate hadn't seen. She missed the end of it because she had to go home and get to bed. She is still getting up pretty early. It was hard to say goodbye to her, but I will see her next weekend too so it didn't hurt to badly. I was really tired after the movie was over, I don't think I every really woke up. So I just stayed overnight and came back Monday, I got home Monday afternoon. It was a good weekend and it kinda made me anxious for next weekend. We are going to try and go to a Christiand music concert at Kings Dominion. It'll be expensive but I should be ok. I can't wait. That's all for now.

ONE MORE DAY!!!!!!!!!

Well I guess I should update. I don't really feel like it, but if I don't do it today then I might get out of the habbit and not do it anymore at all. The weekend was ok, Ryan's birthday party was kinda fun. It was weird to stay at home so much for three whole days. One funny thing that happend was that one of Ryan's friends now thinks that John and I are badasses. After the cerimony he was joking around with his friend he used to work with. He told a joke and his friend kicked him in the back of the leg. John and I walked over and crossed our arms and said "what's this kicking?". He heed and hawed and said that he was going to leave. We cracked up and told him that we were just kidding. But later he and his wife were talking to Ryan and he said that he was legitimatly scared. And Ryan instead of telling him we weren't like that at all told him that we "get like that sometimes" and so now the guy thinks that we're a couple of badasses. It's kinda cool :). On Sunday we actually had a fighter practice. It was kinda disapointing. Johanna, Dionello, and Jen were there. It was disapointing because I could beat them so easily. I don't want to brag or anything, but I've fought those people over and over again. And I know how to beat them. And I'm faster than they are too. And any time I tried not to rely on my speed I lost. So maybe I should just focus on slowing down. I don't know, but I don't want it to get boring. So I can't wait for this weekend I'll have brand new people to fight. On Monday we played a softball game. We lost for the second game of the season. It was one of those games where we hit it right at all the outfielders. The score was 4-8, which is ridiculously low for a softball game. It was kinda disapointing though. Well I will write again later. It's been a rough day so I'm going to go home and sleep for a while.

I actually did some work today. I set up Nancy's new computer, I actually felt productive and everything. I set up all the accounts and isnstalled all the software. It was a good not to feel useless and bored the whole day. Nancy left today and is going on vacation next week. So it will be quiet and I'll be able to set my own schedule. As weird as it seems I'm actually looking forward to going back to the later schedule. I don't know why, it might be because I associate that with seeing Kate when I get off. Damn I miss her. Anyway, there was supposed to be a softball game today but it was rained out. The funny thing is, this was a makeup game from earlier this year. The game was......rained out that time and again this time. I guess God doesn't want us to play that team. He's probably afraid we'll embarass them to much hehe. So I came straight home, it was weird to be home this early. I took a nap because I was so tired. It was weird I dozed off when the boys were playing in the basement outside my door. About 15 minutes later I woke up with a start. I couldn't figure out why I woke up until I realized that MOm had called the boys upstairs for something. I had been woken up by silince!!! That was so weird. Kate worked in the crusher again today so it meant we couldn't email back and forth multiple times. She said to send her a message on her phone if I wanted to talk. I sent her a message but she didn't message back or email me. I'm going to call her on her cell phone tomorrow when she gets off work. I think she said she was going to get more minutes for her phone. If not I'll call her house, I WILL talk to her tomorrow dammit!!! I miss her and want to give her a hug. Only one more week until I do. I wanted to go and see her this weekend but she has a party at Heathers so I'll go up next weekend. Well that's all for now.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. Don't get me wrong, I think a lot normally. But this is the introverted analytical thinking. I've been thinking a lot about the people I know and what motivates them at different times and different places. Nothing special has come of it I just noticed I'm doing it more. My Mom says that I've always been able to understand people better than others. I think what set it off was the stuff with Amber last week, the death of Ronald Reagan, and having coffee with my dad and brother on Monday. Nothing special has come from my ponderings. Nothing earth shattering or anything like that. Something that kinda blew my mind though was something I heard on the radio while driving in to work on Tuesday morning. Glenn Beck had asked people to call him up if they were on the communist side of the Iron Curtain during Reagan's presidency. He had lots of people call in from East Germany, and Yugoslovia and Ukraine. One of the things that they said was that they would hear Reagan on the radio illegally. They said that when they would hear him talk about democracy and wanting everyone to be free, they would be so inspired that they would want their own country to colapse. They would want their own government to colapse. I cannot imagine this!! Maybe it's because I'm an American. But even when I didn't like our leader and figurehead I still wouldn't want my own country to fail. I can't imagine not loving my country. But I guess if I wasn't free to make my own deciscons and have my own faith it would be different. I'm beginning to see more and more of a connection between oldschool communists from the 60s-70s and the liberal left today. Here's a great example Communist Agenda from 1963. That kind of thing makes me so happy to be in a country that I can love and be proud of.
Aside from thinking a lot I've been hanging out with John a good bit and just basically chilling out. At work things have been deader than dead. I have taken to reading the comic that Kate likes so much called 8-bit theatre. It can be really funny in parts. But after a while the humor got kind of old. Of course that might have just been me reading it for about three hours straight. I'm about half way through, and he really needs something a little more original. The way it looks, I'll probably finish them today lol. That's all for now, I will update again at least once before Sunday. Maybe more because I anticipate being at home and bored a lot during the graduation. So until then take care.

PS. I love you Kate and I miss you.

Softball game

We had another great softball game last night. We had almost 20 people there so most people only got to play for half a game. Except for me, I got to play the whole game because there were more outfielders than infielders on the second team. We were up 7-2 and were playing some great defense. And it seems like in the 4th inning when all the new guys come ine that we score around 10 runs. We ended up winning 17-2 by slaughter rule. I threw three people out at first from third. And Bill and I got a guy in a rundown at homeplate, which was really cool. We beat them so quickly that we had 25 minutes left before the next game started. So we decided to scrimage because some people didn't get to play very much. What happend next was really scary. Dan was playing shorstop and someone hit it into shallow center. He raced back and made an unbeliveable diving catch. It was just beautiful. But when he landed he knocked his shoulder out of it socket. He lay there on the field writhing in pain but not saying anything. Dr. Martin tried to pop it back in but couldn't. So we called Mo and asked him to come look. He got there in about ten minutes and Dan was just sitting on the ground in pain. Mo popped it back in for him, but it took about 5 minutes of pulling on it. I have never seen anything so scary as that, or seen anyone in so much pain. His face was all contorted and he was breathing so hard I thought he was going to hyperventilate. He was ok after about a half an hour of ice on his arm. But he was still in a lot of pain. Mo said that usually he gives the person so much valium that they can't even stand up before he does something like that. He said the problem was that Dan's shoulder muscles were tensing up around the arm, not letting it back in to joint. Scary, very scary. Dan was ok though and said it had happend a number of times before. I can't imagine going through something like that. We have another game scheduled on friday. I doubt I'll get to playthe whole time though. But for the first time I feel like I have enough strength in my arm to play shortstop and thirdbase and get people out like I should. I want to be like Randy someday where I don't even have to think about it when throwing someone out from the grass. I'll just keep working out I guess.

I'm sorry for the lack of updates. There's really no excuse, except that I'm not at work much on the weekends and thus not at a computer 8 hours a day. The weekend was kinda uneventful. Except for John coming home!! He surprised us with a visit. He got a week of leave because he's been assigned to a base in Florida. I'm sure he's real upset about that as you can imagine. But at least it's not Iraq or Afganistan. I say that but I don't know that I mean it. I would be proud if he were to serve our country in that way. We've been hanging out a good bit at home. I think I'm going to be really glad to get back to work. Sunday I went to Charlotesville to find practice at Isenfir. Well we(Jen and I) found the place where practice was supposed to be happening but we couldn't find any fencers. We ended up calling Gianetta and asking her to figure out what was going on. Then we hung out at Starbucks for a while before giving up and going home. It was good coffee but a long expensive trip for nothing, and I was really looking forward to fighting. Oh well it happens I guess. Sunday night John and I went to get wings and watch the baskettball game. Which I was surprised when the Pistons won. I didn't think they had a chance against the Lakers. Today was really eventful. I went to get coffee with John and Dad, which was cool. We had some good conversations, but Dad still likes to preach which annoys me a lot. I don't disagree with him at all really, but that's the problem, he acts lectures me like I need convincing. I guess he's earned it and I should just be patient. After coffee I went and did the drama workshop which was fun. It was actually a lot better than I expected. There are some great extroverted kids willing to do drama and improv. If they did a show they wouldn't have to work as much on emoting or projecting. Which was half my job when I directed. I have to go get some food. I will write about the softball game when I get home.

It's been a while since I've updated. And for very good reason. I've had kind of a crappy week and didn't feel like writing about it. Tuesday I went to lunch with Mom and she reminded me that Ryan's 'graduation is the weekend of Highland River Melees. And I really can't beg off from that, there's really no excuse that I could give that would be appropriate. I could tell them the truth, "Graduation for us homeschoolers isn't all that special, and Ryan gets embarrassed from attention anyway". But that would probably just breed some bad blood which we don't need at this point. But it still sucks because that's supposed to be a cool event, and we might have been able to go clubbing that night too. And I would have gotten to see Kate!! I may meet her in Charlotesville that Sunday if I go to practice in Isenfir. Then on that day I got a bill for some money that I owe the University, that I really shouldn't have to pay. But it's not worth fighting them over anymore because it will just hurt my credit. On Wednesday I posted something on my other journal(that I don't use very much because people I don't like read it). I was at Joe's computer and I wanted to save this one thing for later. It was called the Liberal's Creed. Pointing out a lot of inconsistencies and negativism from the left, while taking the form of their creed or pledge. Well to make a long story short; Little John posted a comment attacking me for posting that "disgusting stereotype". I replied back to him that if they are stereotypes then it's not my fault because I was just repeating things said by democrats. Amber then responds to my post with a really nasty hateful message to me. And in the same post she put an IM conversation between her and Little John saying things like "He's the ulimate asshole" and "He's bitter because he only has an associates degree and is surrounded by one of the best Tech schools in the country" and even worse things than that. I replied to her in a cordial if not even humorous way. I told her that I was basically glad she was gone and that her opinions of me mattered very very little to me. I showed the emailt to Jen Julie and Big Kate and they were ready to kill her. And while I agree that it's one of the nastiest things I've read in a while, it's pretty typical of people who think like her and have her world view. It saddens me that she is able to trivialize all the love, support and understanding I sent her way. The funny thing was when she and John were talking about how mean I was. And I have never been mean to either of them. Hell I bent over backwards to be nice to her when she was here, even when she was treating me like shit. Anyway that's one of the reasons I didn't post this week was because I wanted to tell Kate about the post before she read about it here. The last part of the message was that Amber thought Kate would hate her for posting this and that she was sorry and Kate "deserved better". That's the thing that pissed me off the most I think. Kate put up with so much crap from Amber. Amber's boytoy of the month would come up to Kate's room and tell her all about the angst Amber was going through. Amber always made Kate feel second best in most ways, especially boys. And now Amber, who was more excited to date me last year than she ever was with her many jokes she tried these past two semesters, was belittling Kate for choosing me(Amber will deny that last statement until she dies but....it's true sadly enough). But Amber is gone and has proven herself unworthy of any type of worrying that Kate or I could do. I just want Amber out of my life, I have for a while but now she's really gone. I hope she leaves Kate alone though. So anyway enough about that.
I will write more later, I'm sleepy now.

Weekend update

The weekend was full of things to do and people to meat and visit with. I turned out to be both good and bad.
It was wonderful to see Kate again!! I missed her a lot. She still has that same great energy that is both relaxing and invigorating at the same time. Friday night everyone arrived and we did the whole talking/hottubbing/watching a movie thing. It was Ox, Joe(got there Friday), Troy, Sarah, Angie, Jon, Vlad, Danny, Me, Lil Kate, Jen, David(for a little while), Valerie, and Corry. We all went to bed kinda early, like 1 or so, because we had a big day on Saturday. Kate and I had Joe's bed in the computer room, which was nice. It was nice not to be cramped or to have to worry about being to loud and keeping others awake. We talked for a long time, just catching up on what we had missed.
Saturday was interesting. I did authorize schlagher, it was pretty easy, Aedan did my auth and ended up giving me tips more than anything. Then Dante played his prize. Which was cool, he's a great guy. I was supposed to be his sword jockey and hand him the weapons he needed. But of course Troy took over and took them from me to give to Dante. It's ok though, that's just Troy. The tourney was ok, I didn't do very well. I was having one of those off-days. I couldn't get into any sort of groove. And I was fighting schlagher more than I like to. Susan hit me really hard with her 40incher. It hurt like crazy, but I didn't say anything because I knew if I hurt someone that bad and they told me I would feel horrible. Duke Ragnarr won the whole thing. He's really impressive in that he fought on the heavy field and the rapier field at the same time. He was running back and forth. Corry was there too, I didn't have time to take him around and shoe im stuff. But Djinn was there with Dante and she loves doing stuff like that so they kinda hung out all day. He didn't have much to do though because it was his first event and the only thing really going on was fighting. After court we went to dinner at Grey Wolf, the mongolian barbecue. That was tasty, I ate a lot of food there. Overall it was a good day, I wish Kate had come to the event but 25 bucks was kinda steep for not being a fighter.
That night was awful! For some reason, Troy pressured Gunny and a bunch of other people to come back to the house. I guess he thought everyone was going to want to drink. Well most people went to sleep, including Gunthar who was asleep in his tent when Troy came and pressured him into coming over. All he wanted to do was go to bed so they asked Kate and I if he could take our bed. I said yes very reluctantly. I ended up sleeping with Kate and Briana on the futon. Well Mechior was there too and Susan asked if he could sleep on there too. I said I didn't mind.....MISTAKE!!! I was between Kate and Susan with Melchior on the edge of the futon. I was soooo miserable, I had about 7-8 inches to lay on my side. Kate went to sleep pretty quickly but I was awake. Susan and Mel were making out pretty noisily. And Mel smelled of smoke and whisky which he had partaken in large amounts. I couldn't get comfortable, let alone drowsy. Then I started feeling pain in my hip. It grew and grew and I couldn't get rid of it. After about two hours of this I couldn't take it anymore. I got off of the futon and went to look for a place to sleep. However most of the floor was taken and there were no blankets left. I laid down on the floor but that just made my hip hurt even more. The only way it didn't hurt was sitting down. So I sat in a chair for the rest of the night trying to go to sleep. I couldn't recline it because someone was sleeping at the foot of it. I finally did doze off at about 6 or 7. I woke up and Kate was there with a blanket to put on me. I still didn't make it to sleep though. That is until everyone was up and a bed in the back room opened up. Kate took me back there to sleep and I crashed out pretty hard. She gave me ear plugs that she uses at work and they totally blocked out the world. I slept until about 12 when everyone was getting ready to go back to the event and do melee practice. I couldn't get up, I was to exhausted. Kate came back and napped with me at that point. And I slept better when she was there. I love her! As if I even needed another reason lol. Anyway we woke up around 3 or 4 and went to see Shrek 2 again. It's getting better each time I watch it. It was sort of a blah day which I spent trying to wake up and trying not to be bitter towards Troy for inviting everyone over. Or towards Susan for being kinda rude. Sunday night and Monday was much better. Kate and I got Joe's bed and lots of sleep. Kate and I went out to lunch by ourselves on Monday. And then sort of lounged around, went swimming, played video games. Then it was time to leave. I was really sad to go because I wouldn't see Kate for a long time. And Troy and Sarah maybe for longer. But seeing her was sweeter than I had imagined. And I can't wait to see her again. In fact she's about the only good thing that happend this past weekend. Well that was the weekend. Tuesday really sucked, I'll tell more about that later.