Well I actually did it today. I got up early today and got a ton of stuff done. I woke up at 8....and slept until 10. Which was nice, sort of like the Garfield thing setting your alarm early so that you can sleep in longer. I got up at 10 and started my laundry and started cleaning my room. My room doesn't look very much better right now. Well the trash is gone and everything is kinda more in order. But now there's laundry, both clean and dirty, all over it. I have to hang up a bunch of clothes tonight no matter what time I get home. I cleaned out my car too. I emptied the trash out of the car and realized that I need tp stop eating so much junk. Or at least throw away the junk that comes with the food lol. I took all the clothes out of it and vacuumed. It looks nice now....almost like a car should. I think I may get some upholstery cleaner because some of the seats still look dirty. It may not help because the upholstery is very old and worn so no amount of cleaning will do all that much. But anyway it looks a lot nicer now. It felt really really good to get things accomplished and feel like I was getting things done. Tomorrow I'm going to get the oil changed, get a hair cut and do some errands. I'm going to buy that CD, Passion DVD, new pants, tshirts, chap stick for Kate, and a decent lunch. Whew should be a busy day. I'll have to try to get to the oil change at around 10......or when I'm sufficiently awake. I can get some coffee though, I'm going to walk over to mall while my oil is being changed and they have a coffee kiosk in there. I'll get my hair cut and then head back to Wal-Mart, to get my car and do shopping.

Of course I fenced this weekend so....my groin is hurting. I should really figure out how to avoid that. But it doesn't help that I keep having to run to torgerson for problems. I was walking over there today after Ludwig sent me over there for an audio problem.I saw a girl walking towards me on the sidewalk and it looked like Kate.But when she got closer it was her her. And I was in such pain that I was getting pissed at her. “You arent Kate dammit, how dare you! And you! You stupid walking-in-front-of-traffic dimwit, get out of my way! Why? Because that girl isn't Kate!” Yes I was glaring at a random student on the sidewalk outside of torgerson because my leg hurt lol. And today I got a really good example of why I have a job now. One of the profs in Torgerson was trying to do something funky with the ELMO. He was like “They told me I can't do this so I have to try”. Dammit why can't they just believe us the first time that it won't work? Because then I wouldn't have this job I guess. It was kind of funny though. Welp that's all for now. Oh yeah Guliani's speech last night was wonderful.

Weekend Update

A lot of things happend this weekend and I doubt I'll be able to cover them all. I'm going to try to organize what went on into sections. Right after I get some coffee..........ok back. Coffee is good!

Friday
I had to go into work early to do training with Ludwig at the bridge. It was actually a lot of fun. I learned a lot about the setup and the scheduling process. Everything that I'm hearing now makes a lot more sense. And it would be a cool job if I could make it up there with Ludwig. At this point it's still really up in the air. Heck and Mark had a fight on Thursday and today he sent in a doctors note saying he will be out indefinetly. So I'm hoping it will be soon but not counting on it.

Friday night was interesting. I couldn't really enjoy myself and I didn't know why. It was Kate's birthday party and we went to O'Charlys. We had a good time there and I was happy and joking and everything but I just felt down. After dinner we went to the movies and watched "Hero" the Jet Li movie. I was a little disapointed and kept getting pulled out of it for some reason. Jessica from Sideshow friends was with us, I met her at the club fair on campus and asked her if she wanted to hang out. She said sure....but I ended up paying for her. I spent waaaay to much money this past weekend lol. After the movie we went to Squires to play some pool. I was really tired and down by this point and kinda wanted to go home. Even though I was with some of my best friends. Baron Vlad showed up to play pool and Kate was there. I was just out of it. It really sucked because it could and should have been a great time. More on that later.

Saturday
Saturday I had to get up early and go to the church for the seminar. It could have been a really good seminar. But John Morris is a scientist not a preacher/public speaker. He presented a lot of the stuff that I have actually used in creation arguments, not much new stuff. I went home after a while and took a nap. I got up and was going to watch the football game. I took Ryan with me which was cool but it might not have been such a good idea. We went to BW3's to try and watch the game there. It was full I mean FULL, no room anywhere. We should have left a lot earlier. So we went over to Kate's dorm to watch the game in the lounge. I was kinda worried about having Kate there but it was ok. She goofed off with him and took his hat.......which wasn't a very good idea. Not because he would hurt her or do anything mean to get his hat back. But he works construction and wears that hat everywhere.....it's really nasty. When she left to go to the RH Willy Wonka(I know I know how could she leave the game to go to something as stupid as that, don't get me started....we gave her a hard time about it for good measure) thing she kissed me on the head and kissed his hat....that was very nasty. The game was a good game, a lot better than I expected, we aquitted ourselves very nicely. And we might have won two except for a stupid penalty that turned the momentum. Ending score was 24-13.

Sunday
Sunday was wonderful. We had the demo out on the drillfield. I got there and changed clothes at Kate's dorm. And then we went over to the demo. It was great we have lots of new people now and hopefully we can hang on to them. We did a lot of fencing was was awesome, we had some melee's going and everything. Lot's of new people there so I couldn't go full speed very much. I did get to kick it up a little a few times which was cool. And I found out that despite a month lay off I'm still the best fencer in Black Diamond. I want to lead the practices and train people but there are some obsticles that are in the way that need to be overcome. And by obsticles I mean people. I'll post more on that later. During the demo Julie came up to me and said that Kate was upset about me. About the way I was acting etc. And well after the demo Kate and I worked that out. The biggest problem was that I couldn't tell her what was bothering me when I would feel out of it. It was a combination of things the wedding, me not getting stuff done like I should(being lazy), worrying about getting a new job, finding out things about my parents, and not getting enough sleep. These things combined did a few things, I was kind of depressed and only Kate and sometimes Julie would notice. When they would ask if I was all right I would think about it and nothing would really be wrong so I would just say that I was "fine". Turns out they didn't like this at all. They knew something was wrong......even if I didn't know what it was. The other thing it did(especially the no-sleep part) was make little things bug me a lot more than normal. I just wasn't in the mood for immature siliness, no matter how funny it actually wasy(and thinking back some funny stuff happend). Kate and I talked through all this as we were going to Wal-Mart, and I think just talking about it made it better and put me in a better mood. And we had a wonderful time after that, everything is better now. We spent some private time together which was very nice. And I think because of it I slept like a baby last night and am feeling really wonderful today. I hope I get to see her today, but I have to go home pretty early to get some stuff done that I didn't do because I slept in today.

On Wednesday(payday) I have a bunch of things to buy. Brian Setzer Orchestra CD, Passion Of The Christ DVD, orange pants from RW(hehe), and I have to get a haircut. This is really just to remind myself so I don't forget. I'm tempted to buy the CD today but I spent way to much money this past weekend.

That's all for now, I have to set up my other blog and get going on it. http://fedorapundit.blogspot.com . Lauren is going to post a link to it on the College Republicans listserv. Don't worry I will still post regularly on this blog, and I might even crosspost.
Ciao

I'm finally sitting down to type an update. I've been avoiding it all week because I didn't really want to write or think about the wedding. So I just decided to do that at a later time....when it's not so painful. I will however talk about why it is painful and why this week has been kinda rough. Nothing really bad happend at the wedding, like I said I'll write some other time dealing with the whole experience. But it threw in to sharp relief the situation that I am in with my family and my life. And it hasn't been fun. As much as I don't like Robert, disagree with his family about things, don't like how much they influenced Betsy; things aren't really that bad. Betsy has a marriage to a nice guy who will always love her and treat her extremly well, they will never be in danger of going hungry(Betsy can always get a job as a nurse somewhere), and if they have an argument they are both rational enough to deal with it. The bad part is that Betsy went through all that pain and fighting with Mom and Dad, and got technically what they wanted her to have anyway. It sets a really bad precident for our family. It's not that bad for me since I don't picture myself ever getting married. But what about John, or Ryan? What if John falls in love down in Florida? What's he supposed to do? All the 'rents have ever said is 'no' or 'girls are bad'. Along with getting family overload, I was also thinking a lot about where I am in life. Stuck in my parents house at 23 years old, with a dead end job and no prospect to improve. All of those things were weighing on me all weekend, keeping me from sleeping very well. So I've been fighting off the depression that comes with all of that. And in addition to that any sort of childishness really grates on me(this comes from being at home so much and dealing with it there). Nancy has been the worst at this, she whines like a little kid all day here at work, but I can't say anything. I'm trying very hard not to let it all get me down, but it was sort of a buzzkill of Kate coming back and I haven't been in the best mood the whole time. I don't think she has noticed very much, but I could be wrong. It's her birthday this weekend so I'm going to do my best to be in a good mood. I hate being depressed, especially when there's a chance it will effect other people. It's hard to watch her get that sparkle in her eyes and know that it's not in mine. So I'm just going to do my best to get through it.
In general this week has been pretty fun. Kate and I have watched a couple of good classic movies. Charade, To Catch A Thief, and Sabrina are all really good movies. Two of those are romantic comedies. And I think that it's because of those movies that I can't watch romantic comedies nowdays. They all just seem so unoriginal and trite. I watched Sweet Home Alabama and it just seemed like one generic plot device after another slammed together to make a movie. And guess what....it made over a hundred million dollars. Oh well, maybe I should write a movie script full of generic plot shtick and make money on it. We are planning to watch more, next is Maltese Falcon and Casablanca. We played some wallyball on Monday, and well I wore jeans that day. Not a good plan really. Let's see, I bruised my hand, elbow and foot, scraped some skin off my knee and bashed my other knee pretty bad on the wall. If we start playing wallyball as much as we did last semester I may invest in a pair of knee pads. One thing I did notice was the smell when I first got there. Derek usually smells bad, but it seemed like everyone there needed a shower. It was nasty, I hope that someone gives them so free soap so they remember to bathe. I'd hate to have to put up signs.
Today is Kate's birthday, they were supposed to do dinner and a movie tonight. But because she wanted to see Manchurian Canidate, which wasn't playing until late, she decided to switch it to tomorrow. Which is probably more convenient for her. But it just makes my life crazier. There's an SCA demo that afternoon, we were supposed to be going swing dancing from 7:30-9, and Mom wanted me to come to a banquet at church that night. So everything going crazy. I got her a gift that I will give to her today. It's more of a practical thing than a gift you would get from a significant other. But I know she will like it. I might get her something "sweet" tomorrow and give it to her at dinner.
I found a really really great deal on an apartment but I can't find a roommate. Ludwig could do it with me but he has complications from his parents asking him for money. I could ask Josh or Michael I guess, but then I would still have to keep my lives separate(church != SCA). Oh well I guess that's what comes from having to many female friends. Not that I mind female friends but parents would flip out if I tried to have a female roommate.

It is really hard to post today. My mind and my emotions are going every which way after having lunch with Betsy today. I found out that a lot of what I was hearing about the situation when it was unfolding was extremely filtered through Mom and Dad. Betsy and I met at the Boston Beanery today for lunch. Nancy said I could take extra time if I needed it which I did. We talked for a while about the wedding, the shower, Robert's surgery etc. Then I asked her to tell me how everything went down. I hadn't heard her version of it and I wanted to do that to see if the bad things I had heard were true. It turns out that some things I had heard were way off in their perspective. Which I probably should have guessed. She did confirm for the that it was Kim who sold her on the Calvanism. The way she confirmed it for me was by going on and on about how she figured it out for herself. I am fairly good at seeing what people really mean when they talk. And the conversations she described to me that she had with Mom and Dad made much more sense to me out of what I had heard. In fact she was dealing with a lot of things that I have problems with Mom and Dad about. There was a massive lack of communication from the parents. And a lot of passive aggressive animosity towards the Messers. Which I can understand to a point, but they have to offer an alternative or a reason for it. One of the big things was about courtship. Mom and Dad are/were high on the idea of courtship as an alternative to dating. Unfortunately they don't know exactly how they want to go about it. The especially don't know how to pick the guy/girl out in the first place. I have complained several times to them about this. They can only say what amounts to "no girls/boys allowed" and all that that entails. I half think that they don't know, and or don't want to know how it will turn out. For them it might be that marrying or dating means rejecting them. I don't know. It turns out that T and Betsy fell in love very slowly and that when they actually talked to each other one-on-one it was a huge deal. After that Betsy went to Mom and Dad and said I would like to cout this guy, how should I go about it? Dad walked out of the room and Mom cryed a lot. After a while they talked to him and to her and then sat her down and told her that they would be willing to try and make the courtship work with him. After that they did nothing for about three months. Except deny her seeing him at every turn and put them down a lot. Which I can't blame them for really, this family comes into town and has a radical theology. Influences theri daughter away from them to the point where she spends twice as much time with that family as theirs, and then wants to marry her into the family. When it came to a head Betsy confronted them and was like "look nothing is happening, I LOVE him and want to be with him. You have offered no structure, no conditions, no encouragement and no support. So if this is what courtship is then I don't want it. I'm 23 years old, I want to get engaged to T and work on having a life together. Here are the reasons I like him and here are the reasons we will work together." And of course this didn't go over well at all. But I understand both sides of the coin. This is where I got the idea from Dad that she had threatend to elope if they didn't let her marry T. While a total distortion of what she said, it's what he heard and the only thing he was going to hear from that statement. The other thing came when she was switching churches and doctrines. She went through the Bible twice(supposedly, I still think that Kim influenced her severly in this. If I wanted to I could go through the Bible and support poligimy....but anyway) and came out a Calvinist. And didn't let Mom and Dad talk her out of it. After this she came to Dad and said "I realize I am going against your will in this. And that I am also living under your roof and you provide a lot for me. I will move out if you want me to." Dad of course told her that she would never have to move out and that she was always welcome here. And the way I heard about this conversation, either from Mom or from Dad I can't remember which, was that she had threatend to move out if we didn't let her go to their church. Which again is not what she said but what they heard. There were a few other things but I don't feel like getting into them right now. Maybe later. I have to get home and get ready for tomorrow. The rehearsal dinner is tomorrow and now that I know all of this I don't know how I want to give the toast. I could piss off a lot of people if I say what I want to, so I'll probably just be funny instead.

Today was actually an extremely busy day at work today by any standards. I spent all morning doing room checks in Durham. We only found one problem but it took a while to diagnose, still hasn't been fixed. Then I went to lunch.....at Sharky's which was a big mistake. We got there at 12:15 and ordered around 21:20. The food didn't come until 1! I didn't feel like listening to Nancy yak at me about it so I asked for a box and the check. Well the box came but the check was messed up. So I left my card there and got Candle to sign it and bring it back with him. I got back at around 1:20. Grrrr very frustrating. Then in the afternoon we went and did room checks at Torgerson. My favorite place. We found problems with the VCR's that I couldn't diagnose. I talked to Sam and Nancy and tried everything I could think of. I even called Ludwig to see if he had any ideas. We decided to just leave it and come back tomorrow and try again. Sam will look at it on Thursday if we still haven't found anything.

Wow that was a lot of whining for one post, I think I'll talk about nice things now. Gwen stopped by the office today, she was riding her bike around town. And.....she dyed her hair. Nothing to radical, it's a bright fuchia(it looks like a dark pink to me but that's what she called it). It actually looks really good on her. It makes her look even more cute than she is naturally. She is really happy with her boyfriend at this point in time. She thought she had been dumped when he didn't say goodbye before leaving on a missions trip for a week. But it turns out his Mom had taken his phone away because he didn't do his chores. LOL

Only three more days before I get to see Kate!! Of course a lot of people are coming back tomorrow and Thursday. Oh that reminds me I need to get a new parking permit. I don't want to think about that because it kind of drives home the fact that I'll probably be working here another year. Oh well. Friday night will be fun with Kate. And on Sunday I have found a cool place that I want to take here. It may have to wait until the next weekend but it will be worth it. I want to see My Fair Lady this Saturday with her and her parents. I think after the wedding I'll want to hang out with people I love and watch some good theatre. I wonder how the box office is doing? I should probably reserve tickets but I have to make sure I don't need to be at home that night.

I have found some great new music to listen to. I bought a U2 CD at target yesterday for $1.24. It's really a nice CD with some rare cuts and a nice remix of Beautiful Day. Beautiful Day is probably my favorite rock song ever. And the whole CD, which is only 7 tracks, is one of the ones that I can put on and let it fade into the background. It kind of made me relax and contemplative. Weird I know, but I drove right past the gas station I meant to stop at lol. And when I went to Crossroads to rent a movie, they were playing a live recording of Brian Setzer Orchestra. It's sort of a mix of swing, jazz, rock and big band. It sounded awesome!! I might get that CD if I can find it for less than $20. It was really really upbeat and energetic. I might not want to play it in the car for fear that I'd drive to fast and get pulled over lol. Well that's all for now. Ciao all.

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This is hysterical. Man in blue tutu does Olympic diving.

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I am almost ready to swear off Starbucks. Almost. They really need to hire some baristas with intelligence. I went to get a cup of coffee on Sunday and I said I wanted a "grande cafe americano - black". Now in case you don't know what black is; it's a color that your coffee appears when you don't put any crap in it(crap = cream, sugar, milk, soy etc). I swear to God the barista looked at me after I said this and asked "do you want me to leave room for cream?" Am I the crazy one here? Do other people make their coffee black by putting cream in it? I should probably support local coffee shops anyway, so I think I'm going to stick to those from here on out.
Blacksburg is finally starting to come alive. And by alive I mean it's harder to park, there are more people walking across roads trying to read directions instead of watching for cars, and I actually have work to do for the 8 hours I'm here at the office. It's good because more things are happening and it won't be so boring. Bad because everything will be more high strung and nobody will remember what a relaxing three months we had. Good because Kate will be coming back!!! Bad because about 20,000 idiots will be coming with her. Speaking of which Brian talked to me today. Just randomly out of the blue started telling me about his summer. I wasn't really that interested, but he wasn't one of the assholes last year so I didn't feel the need to tell him to bugger off. Kate's at shooting camp this week so she probably won't get a chance to read this, but I'm going to write every day anyway because I'm starting to enjoy it. Well it's 5 so I'm going to head out. I'm going to Rugged Warehouse to get the other part of the outfit I'm going to use to hurt Kate's head with(in the good way). Ciao

A lot has happend since I posted last, well not that much but some things that are fun and interesting. Well maybe just interesting.....or not. If you aren't interested then you don't have to waste time here. But if you are then stay tuned. Wendesday night and Thursday morning were really interesting. I worked until 10 on Wednesday, actually I stayed later watching ESPN but that's not important. The important thing is that the Engineering department put up a lot of money, over 100k, for a "state-of-the-art" teleconferencing classroom. And they are just finishing it this week. Guess who has to support it? If you said VBS then you get a prize(which isn't anything at all so it didn't matter if you guessed or not). And it is a new kind of room, it uses IP technology instead of ATM. Which doesn't need to mean anything to you other than it's less reliable. So on Thursday morning we had to go over to the room for "training". We actually found a few glitches in the program they wrote for us, and we solved some problems that we knew proffessors would bring up. And when I say 'we' I mean Ludwig, Joe, and I. NOT Nancy who was trying to make mountains out of mole hills as usual. We ignored her and put the room through it's paces. It has some reliablility issues that are going to give us headaches during the semester. But I don't want to whine about that right now, especially since most of my headaches will come from Nancy. The bad thing about it was that I got off at 10 and had to be in the office at 8 the next morning. It wasn't that bad, I had my coffee(the mics in the classroom are on the ceiling so we can have drink in the classroom). But the guy who designed the room was there 'training' us. He was a contractor type person so he didn't work for any of the company's who supplied us with the equipment. So he was 'training' us and acting a lot like a used car salesman when talking about all the features. Which didn't impress Ludwig and I and we basically figured it out on our own. The other bad thing is that because he and his company designed it and built it for us there was very little documentation on the equipment. So if we have a problem there will be very little 'looking it up' and a lot of 'let's try this and see if it works' kind of thing. Oh well, Nancy needs something to stress about I guess. It was nice to work with Ludwig again. We had a good time joking and working together. Also Eric was over at the room for a while. I talked to him about My Fair Lady, he said that the tech crew really needs to take stuff seriously and pull it together. He said that they really did need me because they had a shortage of quality tech guys. But he said that it should come off ok.
I got of work on Thursday at 5 and went straight home. It was really really weird to be at home that early. I finally switched my bed out with the new one. At's a full size bed as opposed to a double. I think it's the same size as the one Kate has at home. At first it looked like it might not happen. I took my bed down and went to get the frame for the new one. And it turns out that it's an old frame from a different bed. It's an antique I think, it looked antique and was really really dirty. And they only had the headboard and foot of it......no rails. I had to rig the rails from my old bed up on this one. It was rough the boxsprings almost didn't fit. I eventually got it though and now I have a huge bed and it's really comfortable. My back has to get used to it I think. I woke up today and my back hates me a lot! I still have to get sheets for it too, I just used blankets last night.
After I set up my bed last night I went shopping and got some toiletries. Oh and I found a cool shirt for $6, that I think will make Kates head hurt. I can't wait to wear it for her(only one more week!!!!). While I was shopping I got a call from Julie. She asked me for some help in taking care of the duck pond demo. She sounded really down, so I rented Blue Collar Comedy tour and went over to her place. While we watched it I had fun laughing at her when she started crying because her little brother had seen this. She can't get it through her head that he's growing up and wants to date. Turns out I was right she was kinda down. But not for the reason that I thought. It turns out that Jay took her out to dinner for her birthday. And while they were out he jokingly admitted to the waitress that he was using her birthday as an excuse to take her out to dinner. Aparently she didn't know that he had a crush on her. It was fairly obvious to me and I had actually mentioned it to her at one point but she laughed it off. Then to add to her angst, EricIan called her and said he picked up a birthday cake for her on his way home from work and could he bring it over. He has one of his passive agressive crushes on her too. We talked about it for a while and she is really torn up about it. She is a naturally flirtatious girl and hates to hurt guys by turning down their unwanted attention. Which explains why she is always so guarded and self-concious. This is the kind of thing that I'm afraid will happen to Lil Kate. She'll be so flirtatious and physically affectionate that someone will fall for he,r and it'll hurt her when she sees how much it hurts them when she tells them that she was just being friendly.
This morning I got to sleep in because I didn't have to go to work, and all the guys left the house early. I didn't wake up until 12ish, I know that Kate will probably pound me for saying that.
All the news today is centered around the New Jersey Governer coming out of the closet and resigning. In my opinion that is the ultimate infidelity, cheating on your wife with another man. The bad part is that he ran one of most corrupt administrations in history, and when it was about to blow up on him he uses this as his way out of a mess. The news people are calling him brave, but I think he's just selfish and disgusting. He didn't seem sorry for what he'd done to his wife, and he def wasn't sorry for the corruption he foisted on the people of NJ. I think that gay people everywhere should be pissed at him for using his homosexuality as a screen for political scandal. And that's my two cents. Tomorrow I am going to a breakfast with Senator George Allen. It's at 8 in the morning, but I'm hoping to get enough coffee to wake me up and enjoy myself. Oh I can't remember if I talked about his on my blog or not but I was on a Nationally syndicated radio show the other day. It's the Jerry Doyle show from LA. He was talking about dating or marrying a person of the opposite political party. So I called him up and he put me on and we talked about when I dated Amber. The thing that he focused on was that while the relationship was going good she was were willing to listen and we would try to understand where we were coming from. But when it got rocky I was a bigot, stodgy and full of hate. It was fun and there was like a 30sec delay on the the radio, so after I hung up I turned on the radio and heard that last part of it again. I sound a lot different on the radio than I thought I would. But I guess everyone probably does. Well that's all for now, I have to take care of somethings before I go to bed early(yeah right) so I can get up early tomorrow morning. More later. Ciao!

I almost did it, I almost got sucked back into the theatre. But in the end there was just no way I could see doing it halfway. While I was at work today I got a call from Robin Russel wanting me to help out backstage. She originally told me that Amy had enough people, and her plea on the phone was "we need people who have done this kind of thing before." And while that was really flattering, it's not realistic for me to try and be of any help. I did promise to come to the theater and see what was going on. When I got there Mark the pizza guy(he's the producer, but he also runs Pizza Hut) was on the back dock making something. He looked up and saw me and asked if I was here to save the day. I laughed and said no, but it scared me that a simple tech crew guy could save the day. I saw Amy, who was stressed tight as a wire as usual, Anna who was in charge of props but had been drafted to be Amy's bitc....er I mean tech crew. I saw Eric again, and his kids. I love his wife she's such a trip. She has almost as much sarcasm as me, which is nothing to sneeze at. I saw Dennis who did the choreography this year, he's just as enthusiastic as ever. And last but not least I saw Jessi. I didn't even know she was back in town. A bunch of us were talking backstage in the 'dungeon' and aparently she hasn't changed a bit. Big news.....she's pregnant.....again! OK please someone tell her to STOP HAVING UNPROTECTED SEX!!!! She of all people doesn't need to be reproducing. She went on and on about living in Richmond and going to VCU. VCU, she didn't like it....she just...."didn't like it." And while she liked living in the big city she complained that it was dirty and hot. Not like New York at all. Someone made the comment that NY was pretty dirty and smelly too. Her response? "Yeah but Ricmond doesn't have that sparkle to cover all that up. I need sparkle, I NEED sparkle in my life". It was all I could do to keep from laughing in her face. She has lived on her own, she has attended two respectable universities, she has lived with her boyfriend, she has lived in a cast house for a theatre company and she still can't see that there's more to life than 'sparkle'. She still needs to feel special and pretty and sparkly to be happy. If she hasn't figured out what it's like in the real world by now then she probably won't ever. I was just sitting there going "omg I dated that, I touched that, I was seen in public with that".......................OK I'm back, I have now conqured my gag reflex. But only for the moment so I will change the subject.
Jose Lima won again tonight. He's having a career year, and the Dodgers after trading for Adrian Beltre have a chance to get to the post season. Baseball this year is a lot of fun. There is finally the kind of parity in the league that makes for plenty of good competition. The Brewers can still challenge the Yankees with a payroll that is about the size of Alex Rodriguez's yearly salary. It's fun again. I'm rooting for the Cubs and the Red Sox, but they won't make it because.....they're the Cubs and the Red Sox lol. I went and got one of the new Moolatte's from Dair Queen today. It was rather tasty I must say. But it was also $3.50. I have to stay away from that kind of thing, it is just way to tempting. Tomorrow I'm going to have coffee with my Dad. I'm less annoyed this time around because I want to talk to him about a few things and I was the one who asked him when we could do it. It will probably be like normal. Me saying something and then him saying it back to me over and over as if trying to convince me of it. But hey that's the way it goes sometimes. I hope I don't do that to people a lot. Wow this post sounds a lot more depressing than I feel right now. I guess that means it's time to go to bed. Ciao

Yuck that is disgusting!! Nancy got one of the new wrap things from McDorkalds. And she's stuffing it in her mouth like the world is ending. Yuck!! Anyway I should update you about the weekend. It was a great time, if laid back a little. And I don't mind laid back at all. Kate and I went to Kings Dominion on Saturday which was really cool. We rode the roller coasters(lines were a bitch lol), my favorite is still the flight of fear, but the line was really really long for it. That night we were both kind of tire, I never felt really woken up and driving kinda takes it out of me a little bit. On Sunday we went to a Watermelon Festival in downtown Richmond. It was nice I guess, it was a lot like steppin out except a lot bigger. And I was kind of festivaled out a little I guess. It wasn't bad but it was hot and I got bored which drained me towards the evening. I hope Kate and her Mom didn't think I was angry at them or anything. I was just tired and lethargic. The trip home was ok, and nice and relaxing cap to a cool weekend. But just like ever Monday after I see Kate for a weekend I missed her a lot. I was kind of rudely woken up on Monday too. About 8:30 Michael ran up the stairs(about three feet from my head) yelling "MOM! MOM! MOM!" I groaned, it was to early to be awake. Then "My hamster had babies!!" Even bigger groan! Now everyone came pounding down the stairs to see them and talk about them and discuss them. Needless to say I couldn't get back to sleep. And it was the kind of thing that I never felt like I was fully awake. So I felt really bored and useless all day, not really bad but not good either. I went over to see Julie after work and tried to cheer her up. She just had some more bad financial news. I'm not sure how successful I was but hey at least I tried. Today I got to work early and I'm trying to get something accomplised but it's not working out very well. There's just not a lot to do. Sorry this is so short, I may try to find something fun to post later. Ciao

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Funny and not funny

First some funnies. I was emailed this list of poems today. It is a chain letter thing and has probably been around but I thought it was funny.

*Jack and Jill went up the hill to have a lil fun

stupid Jill frogot the pill now they have a lil son

*MARRY HAD A LIL LAMB

her father shot it dead

now it goes to school with her,

between two hunks of bread

*LITTLE MISSS MUFFETsat on a tuffet

her clothes all tattered n torn

it wasnt the spider that crept up beside her

but Little Boy Blue and his horn

*SIMPLE SIMON met a pie man going to the fair

simple simon said to the pie man "What have u got there"

said the pie man unto Simon "PIES U IDIOT!"

*HEY DIDDLE DIDDLE the cat took a piddle

all over the bedside clock,

the little dog laughed to see such fun

then died of electric shock

*HUMPTY DUMPTY sat on a wall

Humpty Dumpty had a great fall

all the kings 'horses

and all the kings' men

had scrambled eggs for breakfast again

*GEORGIE PORGY pudding and pie

kissed the girl;s and made them cry

and when the boys came out to play,

he kissed them too cause he was gay

*there was a little girl who had a cute little curl

right in the middle of her forehead

when she was good she was very very good

but when she was bad she got a fur coat, jewels, a waterfront condo,

and a sports car

Well I thought they were funny at least. Also today I heard something about a plant that only blooms once every long while and is supposed to smell like a rotten corpse. Aparently we have one of them here on campus and it is in bloom. What's even more disturbing is that people were lining up to smell it. Umm does anyone else think this is weird? Here it is though and it's gotten local 6 o'clock news coverage. One last funny thing that happend today. We had to look up something in the dictionary today, I don't even remember what we were looking up originally, but we came across the word "farkleberry"!!! I think there might be something fundamentally wrong with having a word like that in our language. To me it sounds like a combination of words.....but I won't go into that. I could use it as an insult though; "you farklberry". Or if someone was gay I could call them by the other name for this plant "sparkleberry". Well the Dodgers are continuing to do well. Jose Lima got another win last night which is cool. Taikara and I had the TV on when the story came on about his win. And I pulled the baseball out of my bag and showed it to her. Even though she isn't a baseball fan she was like "no way". It was awesome hehe. Thanks again for the ball Kate.
And now for the not so good stuff of the day. One of the feelings I hate the most is frustration. Now before you go and get all dirty with that comment let me explain. It's not sexual frustration, it's that frustrated feeling of helplesness when you can't control a situation. Some examples would be last spring semester when a lot of my friends were having trouble with their school work coming up on exams. I wanted to help them I wanted to teach them and explain things to them but I didn't know the first thing about what they were studying. And last night when I was talking to Kate, her shoulder was hurting from bending awkwardly in the truck all day. I wanted nothing more than to give her a nice backrub and make her feel better. I couldn't though, I am three and a half hours away. The worst came when I went over to Julie's house and she was distraught since her friend Kat from SC had been missing since last Friday. I didn't know what to say then because I didn't know her or the situation. And I didn't know what to say this morning when she told me they had found the body(Kat's) . I don't know what to do or what to say. The only thing I can think of to say is that she's been through so much this year that it can only get better. First she broke up with Godfroy, then she lost her job, then went crazy over Assessment, then Rupert committed suicide, and now this. I don't know what I would do. I can only pray for her at this point and be there if she needs me.
So as not to end on a downer note let me just say Rock On Charlie, don't let them get you with their corrupt PC bs!

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I had a nightmare last night. That in itself is odd because normally I can't even remember my dreams. And last night I remembered two of them. The first one I dreamed was that it was Friday night again. And I came in to the back bedroom, after talking with Sarah, to hear Kate tell me to sleep on the bottom bunk. The dream continued until Kate said it was ok, then it started over again from when I walked in. I don't know how many times I dreamed this but it was horrible each time. I finally managed to wake up. I hope I never cause her pain like that again. And I will never forget the biterness in her voice that night. It makes me shudder every time. But the next dream I had was better. I dreamed we were at Kings Dominion and she was showing me how to rollerblade. And I kept crashing into stuff. Speaking of that I'm going to go up there to KD with her this weekend. And I'll probably end up spending the night but I'm not sure.
We had another drama workshop today. It went really well, I'm running out of things to do with the younger kids though. The older ones I worked on status exercises and they seemed to get it. I found out that they want me to keep doing these things once a month. I don't know if I want to do that or not. I don't like working with the younger kids because I really have nothing for them to do. And the older ones are pushing it. I want a group that thinks like me and I can lead instead of push. That might not make sense to anyone, but it makes sense in my head.
I found this site today. It kinda hurt my head a little. OK actually it hurt a lot. Check it out.

Theatre stuff

Damn this blogging software. I have to write this post over again after it just decided it didn't like what I was writing and deleted it. GRRRRRRRRR
I went to the My Fair Lady rehearsal last night to see what everyone was up to. I got to see a lot of my old friends from theatre. And when I say old I mean it, most of the people I knew who were my age and doing this stuff weren't around. Well Amy was there, more on her in a bit. I got to talk to Jeff again. He's still the theatre director over in Pulaski County which is cool. He and I used to always get along great even when I was just on the tech crew. He's a really funy guy. He at one point wanted me to judge one of his one-act competitions which would have been fun; but it never panned out. He's playing Alfred Doolittle which I can't wait to see he should be great. Ed was there doing the producer thing. I'm glad he's not still hassling me about the website. This year again he's doing the program as a newspaper. He got addicted to that back during Annie Get Your Gun. I got to see Lauren, Steve, Jeff, Dan, Larry, Amelia(phantom of the summer musical), Malerie, and Robin. I sat in for part of the rehearsal and they were......blocking the second act!!!! They open in under two weeks!!! They move into the performance space on Sunday. I mean I know this time in the show is when everything is going really crazy and everyone is stressing but still. The were just now choreographing "Get Me To The Church On Time". And the choreographer wasnt' even there, the director was making it up as he went along. Iit could be that the scenes with just Eliza and the Doc are really good and they are just now doing the chorus parts. I hope it works out ok. When it doesn't get managed properly they loose money. Annie Get Your Gun is a good example. It had great music/book, great choreography, great talent etc. But because it was badly directed and managed they lost their shirts. Ask me about that show sometime and I'll tell you. Ed tried to get me to work on the tech crew again and it was really tempting. But that would have meant working under Amy. She is either the stage manager or ASM or she might even be AD. Now don't get me wrong, I like Amy, she's a very sweet girl. But she drives me crazy when she's working on a show. Theatre in general is one part technical and one part social. This applies no matter how technical your roll is. You have to work with people no matter what your job is. Furthermore if you are in charge of people you have to motivate them without micromanaging them. This idea is completely lost on her, she needs to micromanage and feel in charge. And in doing so stresses herself and everyone around her beyond what the situation calls for. She has said that she wants to concentrate her career on directing and the technical side of theatre. Now normally this speaks of motivation and a desire to create. Instead all I get from her is a desire to be in charge of other people. I understand where this comes from too. I knew a bunch of her friends from the highschool. And she aparently would get pretty bitter when she was passed over for a part. But that doesn't completely explain it, she has gotten lots of roles. She was Anne Frank in a show that I worked on(it was a blast btw, the people on the tech crew had more fun than the actors). And she was also Anne Frank for the professional theatre in Wythville. But she isn't the triple threat that some of her friends were. She can't sing, not for lack of trying, she just wasn't blessed with a good voice. And she doesn't have the coordination for dancing a lot. So it makes sense that she would want to be in a position where she can boss them around. She is going to NYU this fall along with Caitlin. I should email Caitlin, I haven't talked to her in a long time. Caitlin is a highschooler who I really got along with well when I first started in theatre. She taught me a ton about theatre in general and she was always working so hard. And she used to hate it when something good would happen to Amy because Amy would rub her face in it fishing for compliments all the time. Hopefully they have settled their differences and will have a good time in college. Anyway it turns out that I couldn't have worked on the show anyway because my sisters wedding is on the 21st. Which is in the middle of the second week of the run. Ugh wedding! BLAH!
That's all for now, more later probably.

Daggumit!!! Kate snuck money into my back pocket for gas! I discovered it a little while ago. I even remember when she did it. It had to be when we were at the pump of the Shell station trying to get it to turn on. At the time I thought she was just groping me....which she might have been doing also....but anyway. She will not get away with this!! Nobody trumps me in this kind of war. Hmm now to go plot my revenge of niceness!! And I have plenty of time to do it too. The only class tonight was canceled(and when I say canceled I mean nobody showed up). Even though they didn't tell us it was I can still leave work before 10. I haven't decided yet what I'm going to do. I might go check out the My Fair Lady rehearsal and see if there is anybody I know still doing the shows. Or I might go see Bourne Supremacy because it doesn't look like any of my friends want to see it with me. But I could technically hit that after work some time this week. At some point I'll probably end up over at JJ&A's to drop off eggs, cucumbers and phone. Tomorrow Nancy gets back, that should be fun. I think I have gotten to used to the quiet. In a sort of weird note about phones, all of the sudden I can get plenty of cell phone signal at my desk. It'll probably drop every call I try to take but who knows. Good thing I didn' buy that cell phone signal enhancer, signal everywhere has gotten better. Maybe Verizon is putting up new towers or something. That's all for now, I'm off to do some plotting.

OOOOOh my back is killing me. But I can't complain really(even though I technically just did, but he it sounds good). I had a great great wonderful and all other adjectives weekend. I got to see Kate again for the first time in about three weeks. It was wonderful time. I would have liked it better if I had been able to go with Kate and Vlad on their shopping trip but no worries. I liked the outfit that he got her. I'm not going to pretend to like him taking her out shopping and then to a sex toy store while leaving me out of it. But that's neither her nor there because it doesn't make any difference between Kate and I. And we had a great time together, it was really hard to leave her. I dropped her off at her house last night and tucked her into bed. I wanted to stay longer with her in her bedroom, but I would have kept her awake and left a lot later than I wanted to. It hurt to leave her though. It was a really rough trip home, because I had already been driving for 4 hours at that point. I crashed really hard when I got home. And I slept later than I wanted to, But it was worth it. I swear that girl gets cuter every time I see her. I can't wait until she gets back in a few weeks. It should be a great semester, hopefully less putting up with the insecure Rocky - Horror element and more doing cool things together. Oh that reminds me, in the livejournal community Amber did something interesting. They were doing one of these things where you evaluate the other person, "do you like me", "would you date me", "am I a close friend" etc type questions. Amber gave Jac such a ringing endorsement that if they were face to face she probably would actually have kissed his feet. Calling him "unbearably cute" saying that she probably would have sex with him and things of that nature. A complete flip flop from her previous attitudes. Just and interesting side-note.
On Saturday we went to a goth club. And I was surprised at how much I enjoyed it. There was very little of the pretentious punk-rebel goth type idiots that you see in high schools. I wish I had known the music more, it was mostly unfamiliar industrial style. Except one time they did play the Muppet Show theme song and it made me very happy. There was a soundproof room off to the side which was really nice. They had chess and cards set up in there. I played a teaching game with Kate. And because I spent so much time trying to talk and explain chess I got my ass kicked. I guess I should have been embarrassed but I really wasn't. Kate and I are planning to play when she gets back here and that should be a lot of fun. I didn't dance very much, I haven't really felt in a dancing mood the past couple of weeks I don't know why. Kate couldn't dance very much either. She has this pair of new kick ass looking boots that hurt her legs when she tried to dance. Maybe she will get used to them and we can dance again sometime. But otherwise she'll have to find some different shoes for dancing. I'm looking into when Swing Dance lessons are. She said she wanted to try that also. Hopefully they will be on Friday night or on the weekend so we can take them together. On Saturday night I slept like a baby, Kate makes a very good pillow. She didn't sleep as well though and woke up a couple hours earlier than me. Which is a switch from the last two weekends we spent at Ox's. She got up to go get me some coffee. She was going to come back and wake me up with it. But Troy stalled in taking her and I couldn't sleep very well without her in the bed so I got up. It was very sweet of her though, she knows the way to my heart is through my stomach on a road paved with coffee beans. I got home at almost three this morning completely wiped. I had a hard time getting to sleep, but then I took a pillow and hugged it into an almost Kate like shape. After that I slept like the dead. Well I have to go get some food I'm kinda starving. I was going to drop off eggs at Jen and Julie's, and I used the time I normally would have to had to get lunch. And they weren't even home so that was a waste. I'll grab a hamburger before getting real food. I may write later, I'm starting to get addicted to writing a journal type thing. Even if it is spastic and random at this point. But I'll get better.